People suck, but love them anyway.

There are quite a few idiots out there that aren't at all worth a damn, but that's the thing, because I've noticed them and acknowledged them right now at this very moment in time, they are making worth of that damn.

Damn.

I was thinking of really starting the new year in love and humility for humanity and really be a shining beacon and light of the world and salt and pepper and all that jazz, but in not even a month into it, I've seen ricockulous amounts of jackassness in people that makes it extremely difficult to carry out my new years revolution. Even the little things, the really little things, like for example the other day in a parking lot just seeing someone leave her shopping cart right in the middle of a freaking parking spot instead of returning it to the shopping cart garage which was right across from her, made me want to confront her in an utmost violent way.

Sinning against others or sinning against nature is one thing, but sinning against me makes it personal and even more difficult to have to turn that other cheek. Today I was sipping my morning coffee in my car waiting for the GO bus to come. It was a cold day so the heat of the coffee steamed up my windows, but I could still see outside a little bit. Then a RAV4 pulls up beside me. It was rather dirty and old just like the woman inside. She opens her door, slamming it hard against my car. Believe me, it was pretty loud, even for a drummer like me. She ignores it and walks away. At that point I was turning my cheek, convincing myself that it was an honest mistake. Three minutes later she comes back holding a Starbucks coffee. She opens her car door, this time hitting my car with twice as much force; I would know because I'm a musician and thus can tell dynamics. I am literally gawking at her like a hawk. She doesn't even look twice to make sure anything was alright. She leaves and at that point I'm sitting there shocked at the assholery of this bitch. Of course, a more violent and satisfying scenario was running through my head.

Trying to understand what Jesus would do in those situations too is especially hard, considering how ridiculous some of these situations are. Looks like wearing love on my sleeve isn't going to happen, at least anytime soon for that matter.